when i’m down and out
March 7, 2011
when a guys is down and out, be it with a fever, or even with a flu, he becomes vulnerable and will always look to certain people in this time of weakness.
no matter how old he becomes, he will inevitably look for the assuring embrace of his mother because one knows that he is in good hands that have so expertly loved and cared for him all these years. no matter how tough a guy is, a wave of sickness will reignite this need in him for that tender touch, for that warm, assuring presence of a mother who knows best. thanks for being there for me, mum. nonetheless, i’m gonna have to toughen up even more cause i know there’ll times when i’m away and i’ll need to fend for myself. but till then, having you there is something i will always cherish.
albeit with a much different style as compared to mothers, fathers seem to provide that pillar of strength i can hold on to in my sickness and struggles. that calm visage exuding that feeling that all’s in control and that i have nothing to fear produces a sense of peace that is invaluable. although you may be quiet, the love you have for me i fully sense, and i wholly appreciate. thanks, pa.
our Father in heaven, the Jehovah Rapha, is the one who is in control. He has the power to give, and to take away any illness or infirmity. faith that my life is in Him and that He only has the best for me gives me such divine assurance that everything will be fine and that these struggles will be for my good. i confess that during such times of discomfort in illness, i tend to neglect calling out to You for Your healing that is better than any medicine or treatment. Lord, help me to change, and help to rely on You even more, in all situations. let me know that in all things, human strength has it’s limitations, but Your strength and power is limitless. ‘not by might, nor by power, but by Your Spirit’.
finally, in my sickness, i find that i’m missing you even more. maybe it’s that desire for your presence, maybe it’s just the want of having you by my side. yet i know that though we may be apart, you are still with me. you said we needn’t hold hands to hold on to each others’ hearts and that’s so true. just the knowledge that you are there, thinking of me and praying for me, is sufficient. just being able to hear your voice cheered me up considerably. sorry i made you worried. i’ll do my best to stay strong and healthy and i pray that you’ll do the same. don’t feel bad bout falling asleep. like i said, just knowing i was in your thoughts was sufficient enough. thanks for being there. i miss you.
